What's It Gonna Take?

Your job is to serve and protect.

So what is it gonna take for us to finally get that?
-A child getting hit?
-A drug deal gone wrong?
-The building burning down in arson?

Thank you!

Well, it's been awhile since I've updated my blog, and seeings how I'm not able to move much, I thought it would be a good time to do so.

I want to thank everyone for their concerns and well wishes as I get better. I much appreciate the love especially in the face of illness. For those of you who are concerned, I will tell you that I will be ok. I woke up yesterday morning with the flu and a couple hours later was dealing with a very sharp pain in my chest. It made for an excruciating painful morning with both going on, so I had a friend take me into emergency to make sure it wasn't anything serious. They took some xrays, gave me a shot of gravol and told me that, while painful, it wasn't anything serious and would just take time to heal (easy for them to say, hard for me to hear). They were more concerned about my hydration since I hadn't had any fluids since midnight the night before (hence the shot of gravol). After that they sent me home for some much needed rest.

After having a very good rest last night, and an even better sleep this afternoon, I can tell you I'm feeling quite a bit better today. The bowl of soup for lunch was the most amazing meal I've ever had (or at least it felt that way after yesterday), and the glass of water felt so good! I'm still in a fair bit of pain due to a massive headache (I'm guessing from lack of hydration - it feels very much like a hangover...not that I know what that is haha), and my abdomen is still very sore which makes for very limited movement. For those of you that know me, you know I don't like being forced to sit still (of my own free will I can be quite lazy though haha).

So there's my update so that all of you can know that it's nothing too serious, it'll just take some time to get back to normal. Thanks again for all your prayers and concerns.

With that said, I'm ready for more soup - or at least ready to try and make some :o)

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Anywhere But Here...

I wish I was anywhere but here. Don't get me wrong - I really like this place, the people, my job. But right now I just don't want to be here. Some might call it feeling homesick. I can't say that it is. To me being homesick means you want to go home and you miss your family. Not that I don't miss my family - I do - but that's not what I'm feeling.

What I'm feeling is I miss my friends. I miss that closeness with people. And I just don't feel that right now. So maybe what you could call it is I'm friendsick. I don't know. I had the opportunity to hang out with some friends Tuesday night. It was a lot of fun! It was great to be able to talk with people who knew me - inside and out - who could relate to me, and who knew what it meant to have a good time at my age. More than anything, it was nice to be able to hang out with people who know me...

That's why I want to be anywhere but here. Basically, it's not anywhere. It's anywhere my friends are (which is a lot of places...Edmonton, Winnipeg, Vancouver, Illinois, Calgary...and the list goes on!). Not that I don't have friends here - cuz I do. But I miss the deepness of my friendships elsewhere.

Not sure where I was going with this...it just kinda took itself. In the meantime I know that it takes time for my new relationships to build and to rebuild that friend base for here that I once had elsewhere (and still do of course).

So for the time being I just need to sit tight and trust that God is taking me where I need to be and more importantly where He needs me to be.

A Funny Email...

CALMNESS IN OUR LIVES (for the new year). I am passing this on to you because it definitely works, and we could all use a little more calmness in our lives. By following simple advice heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace.

Dr. Phil proclaimed, 'The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started and have never finished.'

So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning, I finished off a bottle of Merlot, a bottle of White Zinfandel, a bottle of Bailey's Irish Cream, a bottle of Kahlua, that leftover case of Miller Lite, a package of Oreos, the remainder of my old Prozac prescription, the rest of my vicodin from surgery, the rest of the cheesecake, some Doritos and a box of chocolates.

You have no idea how freaking good I feel. Please pass this on to those whom you think might be in need of inner peace.

Stupid Life Curve Balls

So....Ron and I broke up....yeah. I wish someone could tell me whether we get together in the end...cuz I really like him and I'd really like to know.

Please pray that I can be the support that he needs.

My Cousin Made the News....(and more)

Hey Everyone!

So it's been awhile. Mostly it's been just crazy. Lots has changed. I no longer live in Edmonton, but Lloydminster AB. Yes I'm on the Alberta side. Actually technically I don't live in Lloydminster. I think my residence is actually considered Blackfoot, but I don't live IN there either. I live out in the country about 15-20mins from work in Lloyd. I'm living on a buffalo and elk farm! It's sweet! I'll have to post pictures sometime. But not today.

So what moved me from Edmonton to Lloyd? I got put on my internship out here. I'm working for a church technically just for the year, but the potential is here for me to stay put after 12 months. We'll see. So far I love it though. Great people, great staff, great area (at least I think). So far I fit right in. Most of the people I've met I've clicked instantly with. Mind you, that's nothing new (or so I've been reminded many times - I was really nervous about moving, I had to be reminded many times). The church keeps me busy with youth, children, adults, etc. I'm teaching confirmation and youth Bible study. I'm on the board of young peoples (so youth) and get to help organize and lead youth events. I'm participating in adult bible study. I'm helping out with music in various ways. And there's more I'm sure. But I can't think of it right now. My brain's a blur having just finished confirmation and getting ready for council in an hour.

So what else is going on in life? Well, I think that about caps it for new things. But Ron and I are still happily together. I don't know why or how he's willing to put up with me....but I'll take it. haha. He's amazing, but as his mom always says, she and I are biased. haha. He's doing another year of CREW (that's right, there's another full time team this year) and so I'll hopefully get to see him from time to time. But probably not a whole lot like last year. We try. I'll hopefully be going home with him for Christmas. By Christmas I mean, I'll go to my house for Christmas and then shortly after that I'll head out to southern ontario to see him and his family. I've been told by most of them (but especially by his grandma) that I have no choice, I have to visit them at some point this year....no ifs and or buts about it! haha. His family makes me smile - they're great!

Other than that, there's not much. I mean there's all those little daily things, but that would just take way too long. I save those for when there's not much to say and let's face it, you guys read it anyways to avoid doing everything else (ie -school....oh I'm so glad not to have to write papers and do tests haha).

Anyways, to end, I have a video clip for you guys. It seems my family likes to make the news. This clip is of my cousin, Jeremy (from my dad's side), and he's throwing the first pitch at a St. Louis Cardinals game. In the clip you'll also see his wife, his brother and his brother's wife. Enjoy!